Sun Peekin Through the Thick Clouds

You really know that you are in love when you get that feeling of bright, fresh smelling sun peeking through the clouds to warm your skin to the perfect temperature. Not when you feel butterflies in your stomach ( I don't care how attractive the dude is, that's just nerves), or when you "feel like you are floating" (what doped up hopeless romantic douchbag came up with that comparison?), or a tingling sensation that goes from your head to your toes (you hope that he can give you that feeling, but not ALL the time..ouch...chafage...)Nope! None of that crap! Its more of a cold beer at a football game, or smelling his salty hair on your shoulder while watching the last of a perfect set roll in just in front of a spectacular sunset, or even sunny blades of grass between your toes. It's being able to accept life's little moments of perfection and soak them up amidst the chaos.
So.....soak them up my friends.....

A halted Rush

Sometimes you see that everything around you has come to a halt, and other times you don't notice that things have stopped until you realize that you are now in motion again...

My mind and my time are wasting away, pieces of me seem to be disappearing, everyday.
My words are short, my temper shorter, surrounded now by chaos and disorder.
Falling, stalling. close to bawling I find my self striving.....but only to find a purpose.
Its funny how, when you have so little to do, that one can feel so worthless...

Keep it Cute or Keep it Mute...I JUST CAN'T

Time for a rant...Warning!!!!! If you get upset by hearing people bitch about stupid stuff, seriously don't even read this!!!!!!

So me and a certain company that will remain nameless are officaily having an issue! MOSTLY its their fault and a little bit mine too. So I had a bill due...I thought on the 19th...well it was due on the 14th, that part was my bad...the rest though is totally grinding my gears! I had a good reason for thinking the 19th...I needed to deposit an additional 100 dollars by the 19th. Well apparently by the 19th means that me calling to pay everything today at 3 (on the 19th) was too late...Way too late! The deposit was due on or before the 18th...meaning that as of today it more than tripled how much was owed (because it got tacked on and then taxed as late)...so now I am really aggro...my actual Bill is not even due until 2 weeks from today, and my power may have gotten shut off today! I don't know this yet, it was on in the morning when i left....if my fishies died over this I can not even tell you how upset I will be!!!!!!!! GGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!
Can't things just work out!? I mean really??? Since when does a deposit become a charge? How is this really not an option! WTF man...

I am so downin now!Bad day all around!!!!!! AGH!

WOW! It's been forever!!!!!

So since I am really not sure where to even start this, and my only slightly psychotic follower has been hounding me like crazy for update, this is going to be hella random....

Wedding plans are moving along! I am still ridiculously stressed out about the whole guest list thing, as well as the invitations...The wedding will be perfect! (we just may not have any guests!)

♥ I LOVE MY DRESS! It is beautiful...I am not posting pics though...I don't want him to accidently see!

I am totally jealous for all the ladies out there that had super smooth fun planning with your maid of honor... and I miss my sister!

I started reading a new author, I forget his name though...but it is a really rad german dude who draws cool illustrations too! lovin it!

My mother has been out visiting family in Nebraska, and lots of them are going to be coming in November...AWESOME!

For like 2 weeks I had a wicked tan....starting to fade now though....

I have been reconnecting with friends that I missed alot...thanks guys, you rock!

ummmm...Oh! I lost like 8 pounds (but none of it was from my ass! COME ON!)


Lastly, get this...I may be going on a surf trip this saturday! I am so excited that I may pee my pants!

There are probably a few other fun things, but really guys this is all I got for now. i promise that I will work on getting the oscar pics up....and yeah. I hope that every is having a decent wednesday...much love to everyone in this crazy life!